[Good. Smart Jeff, Smart! SEE?!?!!? NOBUNAGA KNOWS YOU ARE SMART!]
[Nobunaga nods instantly!! That was the PROBLEM. Everyone kept yelling at him about communication this, and communication that, but how? It's not like he PLANNED to go gunblade and slice the armor without discussion, and he literally can't do it on his own. And certainly none of them expected the Captain to be an asshole to Yato, or Valdis to go rogue on Nobunaga, or --]
[So on.]
[Nobunaga was about to pick up a chair and set it backwards to sit in it, but then Jeff did the cutest fucking thing Nobunaga has ever seen, and bowed to him.]
[He's gotten a lot of bows his whole life, but this is his favorite. Specifically because Jeff doesn't know it, the culture behind it, is American, but holy fuck that's so cute!]
[On top of the words... Nobunaga's emotional haywire overloads, and he just glomps Jeff in a hug without warning!]
I wanted to take more time of that day to be by your side. [Finally pulls back from the hug and glances down at the floor!] I would have if I could. Everyone was in agony, and I just thought, I better compile everyone's investigations and bring them drinks, and then put the noncombatants in the kitchen. I had to hope that others could help you. And even if they did... you couldn't have known the steps I was taking to try to fix things, or my thinking, or any of it.
[Bow again? Hug??? Ahhhhh -- One-armed hug like he did to surprise Teyrey a few times! OKAY!]
There's never enough of me. I've always figured, as long as I can get back up, then it's fine, mistakes are fine, just keep pushing forward. K-- [NOPE.] I've been told to think about how my actions affect others. I do. I do. Always. It is the entire reason I take the actions I do. But Yato and I think actions speak for themselves. They can't always, especially when someone can misread and stop them. We have to work on building a better foundation for people to understand us, however. That is on us, not you, or anyone else hurt by our instincts.
Yare yare... this is what I meant too. I am still the same person who waged so much war. Just know, you can tell me when you think I'm wrong. And as long as we both come back to life, we'll always be able to fix it, no matter what. I'll always want to.
[Lets go of the one-armed hug but lightly tousles Jeff's hair!! Take that for making him feel things, you! Especially gooey weak things that go against his Demon King image! GRRRR!]
Trust is a hard word for me. I trusted my younger brother: Nobuyuki. But he was sending assassins to attack me at night, even while acting as my closest commander after our father died. After I defeated him, I let him live. I thought, now he knows he cannot defeat me, he'll stop. But we're both alike in this. The only way to stop me or him is to truly make it impossible with death. Or what Valdis did. [If he wasn't so fucked, he'd laugh but... eh.] I say this because... even so, despite my past, I choose to trust you. It is not like American trust: so open and freely given. It is the trust of someone who can number people with it on one hand, and has been deeply hurt by it in the past. [Scrunches through Jeff's hair! Man, what does Jeff use on his hair? He should talk about it with Klaus sometime.] So don't ever let it go to waste.
Do you know anything about drums? I don't know how busy I will be practicing gunblade forms with Yato, but I want to play. I have done all manner of Japanese drums, but they are much simpler. But I wish to... spend time with you practicing on this too.
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[Nobunaga nods instantly!! That was the PROBLEM. Everyone kept yelling at him about communication this, and communication that, but how? It's not like he PLANNED to go gunblade and slice the armor without discussion, and he literally can't do it on his own. And certainly none of them expected the Captain to be an asshole to Yato, or Valdis to go rogue on Nobunaga, or --]
[So on.]
[Nobunaga was about to pick up a chair and set it backwards to sit in it, but then Jeff did the cutest fucking thing Nobunaga has ever seen, and bowed to him.]
[He's gotten a lot of bows his whole life, but this is his favorite. Specifically because Jeff doesn't know it, the culture behind it, is American, but holy fuck that's so cute!]
[On top of the words... Nobunaga's emotional haywire overloads, and he just glomps Jeff in a hug without warning!]
I wanted to take more time of that day to be by your side. [Finally pulls back from the hug and glances down at the floor!] I would have if I could. Everyone was in agony, and I just thought, I better compile everyone's investigations and bring them drinks, and then put the noncombatants in the kitchen. I had to hope that others could help you. And even if they did... you couldn't have known the steps I was taking to try to fix things, or my thinking, or any of it.
[Bow again? Hug??? Ahhhhh -- One-armed hug like he did to surprise Teyrey a few times! OKAY!]
There's never enough of me. I've always figured, as long as I can get back up, then it's fine, mistakes are fine, just keep pushing forward. K-- [NOPE.] I've been told to think about how my actions affect others. I do. I do. Always. It is the entire reason I take the actions I do. But Yato and I think actions speak for themselves. They can't always, especially when someone can misread and stop them. We have to work on building a better foundation for people to understand us, however. That is on us, not you, or anyone else hurt by our instincts.
Yare yare... this is what I meant too. I am still the same person who waged so much war. Just know, you can tell me when you think I'm wrong. And as long as we both come back to life, we'll always be able to fix it, no matter what. I'll always want to.
[Lets go of the one-armed hug but lightly tousles Jeff's hair!! Take that for making him feel things, you! Especially gooey weak things that go against his Demon King image! GRRRR!]
Trust is a hard word for me. I trusted my younger brother: Nobuyuki. But he was sending assassins to attack me at night, even while acting as my closest commander after our father died. After I defeated him, I let him live. I thought, now he knows he cannot defeat me, he'll stop. But we're both alike in this. The only way to stop me or him is to truly make it impossible with death. Or what Valdis did. [If he wasn't so fucked, he'd laugh but... eh.] I say this because... even so, despite my past, I choose to trust you. It is not like American trust: so open and freely given. It is the trust of someone who can number people with it on one hand, and has been deeply hurt by it in the past. [Scrunches through Jeff's hair! Man, what does Jeff use on his hair? He should talk about it with Klaus sometime.] So don't ever let it go to waste.
Do you know anything about drums? I don't know how busy I will be practicing gunblade forms with Yato, but I want to play. I have done all manner of Japanese drums, but they are much simpler. But I wish to... spend time with you practicing on this too.