Jeff Calhoun (
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COME SAIL AWAY: IC INBOX
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cease to resist
giving my goodbye
drive my car into the ocean
youll think im dead
but i sail away
on a wave of mutilation đđđ
brb dudes âī¸ im either checking out the boat or i got lost in tommy bahama again âšī¸ LEAVE A MESSAGE... text âĻ voice âĻ video âĻ action
giving my goodbye
drive my car into the ocean
youll think im dead
but i sail away
on a wave of mutilation đđđ
brb dudes âī¸ im either checking out the boat or i got lost in tommy bahama again âšī¸ LEAVE A MESSAGE... text âĻ voice âĻ video âĻ action
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[Nobunaga nods instantly!! That was the PROBLEM. Everyone kept yelling at him about communication this, and communication that, but how? It's not like he PLANNED to go gunblade and slice the armor without discussion, and he literally can't do it on his own. And certainly none of them expected the Captain to be an asshole to Yato, or Valdis to go rogue on Nobunaga, or --]
[So on.]
[Nobunaga was about to pick up a chair and set it backwards to sit in it, but then Jeff did the cutest fucking thing Nobunaga has ever seen, and bowed to him.]
[He's gotten a lot of bows his whole life, but this is his favorite. Specifically because Jeff doesn't know it, the culture behind it, is American, but holy fuck that's so cute!]
[On top of the words... Nobunaga's emotional haywire overloads, and he just glomps Jeff in a hug without warning!]
I wanted to take more time of that day to be by your side. [Finally pulls back from the hug and glances down at the floor!] I would have if I could. Everyone was in agony, and I just thought, I better compile everyone's investigations and bring them drinks, and then put the noncombatants in the kitchen. I had to hope that others could help you. And even if they did... you couldn't have known the steps I was taking to try to fix things, or my thinking, or any of it.
[Bow again? Hug??? Ahhhhh -- One-armed hug like he did to surprise Teyrey a few times! OKAY!]
There's never enough of me. I've always figured, as long as I can get back up, then it's fine, mistakes are fine, just keep pushing forward. K-- [NOPE.] I've been told to think about how my actions affect others. I do. I do. Always. It is the entire reason I take the actions I do. But Yato and I think actions speak for themselves. They can't always, especially when someone can misread and stop them. We have to work on building a better foundation for people to understand us, however. That is on us, not you, or anyone else hurt by our instincts.
Yare yare... this is what I meant too. I am still the same person who waged so much war. Just know, you can tell me when you think I'm wrong. And as long as we both come back to life, we'll always be able to fix it, no matter what. I'll always want to.
[Lets go of the one-armed hug but lightly tousles Jeff's hair!! Take that for making him feel things, you! Especially gooey weak things that go against his Demon King image! GRRRR!]
Trust is a hard word for me. I trusted my younger brother: Nobuyuki. But he was sending assassins to attack me at night, even while acting as my closest commander after our father died. After I defeated him, I let him live. I thought, now he knows he cannot defeat me, he'll stop. But we're both alike in this. The only way to stop me or him is to truly make it impossible with death. Or what Valdis did. [If he wasn't so fucked, he'd laugh but... eh.] I say this because... even so, despite my past, I choose to trust you. It is not like American trust: so open and freely given. It is the trust of someone who can number people with it on one hand, and has been deeply hurt by it in the past. [Scrunches through Jeff's hair! Man, what does Jeff use on his hair? He should talk about it with Klaus sometime.] So don't ever let it go to waste.
Do you know anything about drums? I don't know how busy I will be practicing gunblade forms with Yato, but I want to play. I have done all manner of Japanese drums, but they are much simpler. But I wish to... spend time with you practicing on this too.
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It's okay, man. Really. Kl-- [ Mmm maybe not ] Um, people were with me. Like Cass, and Max, and SecUnit... They really did their best. [ He beams now, clearly touched by, like. Well. Everything. It really is such a relief to clear things up. ]
Me too. I-- Um. You're really important to me, you know? I never want to lose this friendship. [ You're not getting out of this without one more hug. That's what you get for playing with his hair: MORE HUGS. ] So you're stuck with me. That trust isn't gonna go to waste.
[ Then-- oh he's so excited, his entire face just lights up. ]
Oh! Dude! Ally, my, um-- [ Probably-ex-best friend who he hasn't seen since getting whisked away to Duplicity, who he'll never resolve things with, it's fine! ] My friend from back home, she was a drummer. We used to play together. [ Understatement. ] It's so cool that you-- I'll practice with you any time, man!
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Okay okay... [Blushing, just tsun-glancing sideways!]
[And nods about the drummer.] Good. Then you won't be alone. And this way, even when it is for yourself that you practice, you don't get lonely. [He knows Jeff. No moping in the dark alone!] And we can be bandmates. Something impossible in my time. So extra special, don't forget it.